Dear Future--Love M.
A self-poetic letter between myself and the future. Content Warning-Trauma, Grief, Loss, Depression, thoughts of death
Dear Future,
Will I have a Bright future?
I know it's hard to say…
I wish I could believe that things would get better.
Sadly, it's not.
The darkness is still there.
I wish someone could know me before the mid-2010s or early 2020s.
It's almost 2023(2022 is getting closer to the end).
It's been in a dark world with hellish cults from violence and hate that our world turned into an endless nightmare.
It's been too much for me in years.
I can't stand it anymore!
If things are getting bleaker forever, I don't know if I'll survive any longer.
Why?
Because– I'm one of those beings that the monstrous leader of the cult hates– a woman, disabled, and queer.
It means that I will no longer see myself as a human or a citizen on this earth.
I would become more of an object and less valuable forever just like in the past.
I wish someone could believe my concerns but sadly they just want me to keep silent and all those phrases like ‘get over it and ‘don't be a baby.
If something happens to me, they would ignore me and laugh at me even more.
I lost someone who is close to me and has been so busy these days with no response to my call.
I felt betrayed by my home, my close ones, my friends, my family, my country, and my community.
Every time I see it's bleak, bleak, bleak, and bleak-every day and night and then the next day more bleakness.
I don't know if I'll be around for next year, 5-10 years. I will be gone soon –I don't know when.
I wish things could get better, but it's too late now. The Nightmare will never be gone and I will never wake up.
Love, M.
About the Creator
Meghan LeVaughn
I'm Meghan. I’m almost 36. I always love to be creative and using my imagination since I was a little girl. I like stories & love to share my inspirations, journeys, etc.
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Comments (3)
Heartbreaking but their is hope.😊😊 Music heals, self-care. You are loved💖💕
I am so sorry you are in this place! I understand depression and fight to get out of that space! I take 5000 B vitamins every day. I use a sun lamp especially in the winter, when it is grey. I do laughter yoga daily in the midst of it. I can relate to some of what you are talking about, more than just a little bit. I am an older, disabled, Native American woman. Sometimes we try things that are a permanent solution to a temporary problem man. Sometimes we do things that make it an option for our younger family members when it wasn't an option before. Thank you for sharing, I won't write anymore!
Powerful piece. You are human and an important citizen of earth. Hang in there.