Darkness Reigns

Darkness reigns in the pit of my gut.

Holding me down like I'm sh*t out of luck.

I feel the tears preparing to fall,

But frustration kicks in, it builds me a wall.

Frustration from not knowing what eats me inside.

It feels like my soul has something to hide.

But no matter how I look, how hard I try,

I just can't seem to figure out the 'why'.

I ask myself time and time again,

What is it, now, that's disturbing my zen?

Could it be something from way back when?

Even if I thought I put those issues to bed?

The past, it seems, is never quite dead!

I am so tired of feeling so sad,

When things in my life really aren't that bad!

I am happy to say I have escaped my past.

Yet the feelings of old, they continue to last.

But even if I can't pinpoint what it is,

It's a feeling of which I need to get rid,

This feeling of dread, which needs to lift,

To be so sensitive, doesn't feel like a gift.

But I really try not to despair,

I'm always looking for hope in the air,

After-all, today is just a day,

Tomorrow may just bring a different way.