Cycles

I don't know if I want to do this anymore...

My outlook has become bleak

And my state of mind more fragile than anchored~

I feel myself back in this cycle,

The same one I told myself I'd never be in again.

This is the first time I've caught it

While the wheels are still in motion,

And I'm not just staring at the fallout.

So that means I have the awareness and ability

To stop it at any point I choose

So I find myself asking myself

What am I still doing here?

I'm running out of reasons to stay.

I resent you for creating this chaos in me

Nauseous from all the devils advice

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What if I'm too sick to walk away.