Lacking motivation with
time passing on
I had ambitions and passions - I’m not
surprised they’ve gone
All I do on my phone is scroll
faster for fun
I’m smiling, I’m smirking, I’m -
disappointing my Mum
Younger me told her - ‘Mum when I’m older
I’ll be bolder’
she asks now - how am I? - I frown
head to her shoulder
I couldn’t bring myself to break her heart
I told her ‘I’m fine’
I sold her a dream - she could believe - that had
never been mine
Relieved she smiled - and
pushed aside my hair
believing the lie - to save us
both from despair
One day I’ll dare to have that -
true conversation
where I’d tell her - ‘life's a game and
full of frustration’
The game? - I’m losing - the world?
It’s bruising
the people? - Abusing - and the future?
Confusing
No - its best to sell her the days
better to come
who can sit there and admit they’re
a failure to their mum?!
We sit there together - she is
looking my way
as if she’d heard what I actually
Wanted to say
She stares at my eyes where my
happiness should be
she addresses my soul as she shares
this message to me:
"My child you are mine
and I love you
it feels like I win every time
when I see you
Don’t let thoughts loathe you
and move you
but move them - don’t prove them
I’ll show you
Or we can sit here - for a bit, dear
for me to hold you
I’ll pray - 'God here is today's pain -
we give all to you'
As long as you live - there always is
hope in the end
time still left - don’t forget that yet - always
room to mend
Whenever you forget where your
foundation is from
just come, sit here and have a
conversation with your Mum"
About the Creator
R F K
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