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My breath smell of coffee and gum
My stomach feels completely cleaned from the inside out.
The feeling is excruciating, I love it.
The emptiness hurts but it’s filling at the same time. I tell myself that this is what I deserve.
I cannot bare to stop now, it is too late. I am already lost. Honestly I feel like I lost myself a long time ago, now is just when it starts to sink in.
Did I take things too far?
When I look in the mirror, I remember how I used to think, “I’m never gonna get like that, that’s sick”.
What are others thinking? how do they just live? How do they not worry? How?
Why can’t I stop worrying?
When I hear my parents arguing, I laugh to myself. A normal person would feel sad. But I am happy. I am happy because I think this is worth it.
I will become skinny.
I will. Whether they like it or not.
I will be perfect.
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