Confusion of the Soul

Loving giving kind and caring

Brightening up my day very day

Hateful cursing angry mean

Causing shadows to come my way

Dark yet not dangerous even l

Just got bought vileness to ruin the fun

Snap back so quick

As though it never happened

Normalcy returns with no apology

Loving sweet with hugs and kisses

Now I’m distant but you can’t feel the pain

Withdrawn and suspicious and you wonder why

Grateful thankful blessed beyond measure

You give of yourself so tenderly

Snuggling spooning laughing loving

Suddenly without warning you snap

The darkness returns I retreat you follow

Angry without cause shutting down sullen

Nap time you wake comfy and cozy best friend lover until it begins again

Mental illness addiction your brain has changed scrambled neurotransmitters

It’s not even n your fault