Confessions in Retrospect

Sometimes the attraction

Was solely cerebral

But in the abstraction

Made love to the peaceful

And though I felt evil

Still using such beauty

For personal ends

There was you and me

Truly

As more than just friends

But to look upon you

Through the mind-bending lens

As the conscious

Apart from emotion

Ascends

With you staring right back

Synchronized

In my eyes

And perhaps even far beyond

What it disguised

Was the moment I thought

Only futures could hold

What the two of us

Here in the now

Had foretold

Growing old

Not appealing

No fantasy lands

Could be made to resemble

It held in our hands

When fingertips

Inches away

Stayed astray

And it faded to everything

I couldn’t say

Though you know I have written it

Infinite

Times

I envision,

Revisit it

Lost in these rhymes

And if I can’t return

To unlearn

Grave mistakes

I will take them into

The last one

I awake