Clarity

I've found some clarity, but I don't know how long it will last

Still, I'm thankful for it now

This is the way I am - at least so far as I've figured out

Or at least what I’ve allowed

I can feel something real

I could touch it if I tried

New to me, it's hard to believe

It's been with me the whole time

Living so effortlessly was something I’d thought intangible

I was taught that love had form

Already, I can see the forces are gathering:

Obligators of the norm

I was sure there was no future

But my dishes are squeaky clean

I’ve sung every word to Louis’ ‘Wonderful World’

Finally knowing what they mean

Here comes the crowd on cue, their noise incorrigible

I just wish that I could stay

Sanctum of the exhumed, where nothing’s impossible

Could it always be this way?

Breathing the sea, racing wildebeest

Flying far above the clouds

Funny thing, it’s embarrassing

There are times I forget how

Faltering frequencies, the vignette’s enveloping

I’ll lose myself among the grey

The prospect’s disquieting, a life in society

But I think I’ll be okay

I could hear music once again

I could let the light right in

I'm not ready to be happy

But I'm closer than I've ever been