I guess I have been doing alright, I have been sleeping a little at night.
I don’t want to be a pain and complain
that's when people start to go insane
Thinking it could change things, but it won't.
It's up to me, I got make the change that’s why were free,
But I can't seem to clear the fog that’s stopping me
There's no future that’s bright enough for me to see.
Where am I supposed to go? What am I supposed to be?
I worry all day what tomorrow may have in store
I no longer feel comfortable and secure
Thoughts race through my mind, Even when everyone else is at rest
I think about how I'm at my worst, When the reality is I am at my best.
I keep asking God if all this is a test.
I know I'm going to fail but I keep riding that rail.
I can't give up that's not who I am
I have to keep going but, damn!
I'm not sure how to stay strong
I've been down and in pain for so, so long.
I look for hope and inspiration everywhere I turn
But dealing with all this, there’s so much I need to learn.
I got to keep moving forward in order to survive,
I got to keep finding reasons I want to stay alive.
The worst part is the struggle is with me.
I'm fighting an opponent I can't see.
I never know what the next move will be.
They beat me down till I can't feel no more
Most the time I struggle to get up off the floor.
The pain becomes way too much,
I cannot stand just the slightest touch.
“please just hold me, no stop there's too much pain!”
“I can't do it today I got a headache again!”
I spend a lot of time feeling like I have let everyone down
And wondering why I'm even still around.
I do know that I can't just go
The reason why is what I don’t know.
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