Chains
Those Deepest of Wounds
DEAR PEOPLE TO WHOM I HOLD GRIEVANCES,
I have long been shackled
Shackled by the hate and pain and self-loathing
All of these things I blamed on you
.
You who looked down upon
Made me lesser than
Taught me that I sit low
I hope you always find the Sun on your face
The Wind always at your back
.
The girl who broke my heart
I see your joy on Facebook
I am certain you never think fleetingly of me
I am grateful for your happy life
.
Fair-weathered friends
You left me at my lowest
When I wanted to die
You were nowhere to be found
May you never know that loneliness
.
Church people filled with bromides
Your judgment
Your dismissal of me
Your PLATITUDES instead of LOVE
I pray God shows you the grace that you did not show me
.
Bullies
Each and everyone of you
Schoolyard, church pew, office
At HOME
Real bruises
Real shame
Punches with fists and words
Thank you for the hard lessons
I wish you no pain
.
You Trusted Thieves
More than money or things you stole
My soul crushed
My innocence lost
All devoured like a lion eating gazelle
Be blessed all your days
.
Long poisoned
Bleeding
Dragging chains
I know it was not you
IT WAS ME
.
Never seeing the road ahead
Always the thorns behind
.
Today I forgive you all
.
Today I forgive myself
.
Today I am FREE
Love, Jamie
About the Creator
j.d. davis
Seeker. Thinker. Melancholy. Conflicted believer. Evolving human. Bipolar being. And sometimes I use bad words.
Comments (1)
Wow! This felt like a long time coming. So glad you got it out in the open. Great read!