Cool air leaves evidence of warm breath
Im smoking a menthol cigarette
I hate menthols
But I would smoke a whole pack
While I got to stand on the corner
No matter how long it’d be
With promise glimpse of those eyes, I would see
Flick my ashes, searching for your face
In every passerby, every car I peak in
But its to dim to see, with the night sky
The way it hangs over the city like a veil
Hiding all the peoples secrets in the dark
And yet they know mine. But do you?
Feeling I’m the only one who knows the truth;
I know too much for my own good,
Wishing for the blissfulness of all misunderstood
Daydreaming again, all thats ever in my head
Is the pureness of everything you are
And the way the beauty of your heart
Makes the beauty of your face so much brighter, surreal
The way I can’t stop staring at my phone
These screen contents, for my eyes, alone
A few of your photos I’ve cropped together
Little embarrassing to admit the truth
But this is absolutely what its come to
I am too pathetic to live without entirely
By now probably hours and days worth of glances
Trying to claim myself, the lust only advances
That flood of crazy thoughts, leave my face with grin
Toying with the idea of taking chances again…
So I write a paragraph, hit send…then…NO!
Delete! Delete! Delete! Cancel! Cancel! Cancel!
Sweet relief, with realization the text did not go through
I’ll admit, I’m absolutely terrified of my own truth
Can’t yet allow these feelings be known
No matter the affection that could be shown
The shame of this, which is entirely natural
Yes I realize the ignorance
Leaving me in a constant fog and dissonance
I rip out my heart, tear it to pieces,
Then I swallow them until they are hidden deep within
Praying to the skies they are never brought up again
Cause even the slightest chance of any rejection
Would cause my heart and my soul, a disconnection
I’d shut myself inside form the world
Between sheets and blankets, in fetal position curled
Slowly rocking back and forth
While millions, nope, billions
Of thoughts would race through
Well then again, more like trillions, since thoughts of you
But who am I to kid
its well known the only way this could all happen
Would be for you and I to speak
Yeah right, leave me laughing for a week
Unfortunately I still don’t have those type of guts
For now I'll keep chain-smoking these menthol cigarettes.
About the Creator
T. Skye
Writer, poet, hopeless romantic, lover of art, fashion, style, design and self expression through these things. Currently focused on going back to school. Hopefully my writing invokes inspiration and creativity, for others.
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