I want home to be something tangible
I want it to be recognizable.
But sometimes it's so hard to hold onto something you want so much.
Every time I leave a place my chest grows heavy,
and I want to stay, I want to come back
but as soon as I'm gone, I can't even remember why I was there.
What it was that made me stay in the first place.
Every once in a while, there is something that reminds me of home.
The flowers that smell like my grandmas' porch on a July morning.
The screams of laughter from kids in a schoolyard like me, not so long ago.
I remember a hand that stroked my forehead until I was lulled to sleep.
But now, those things seem so far away.
When I go back to those places,
it doesn't feel like it did before.
Even those people are the same,
but I am not.
And I can't go back.
Home is not a street, a smell, a person even.
Some people make me feel at home, but it never lasts.
Only until they leave.
Or I do.
Maybe home is forward.
When I keep moving, I never think about what home is to me.
Maybe home is only a collection of memories,
constantly in the past.
Maybe I'll never find a home again,
maybe I'll never stop feeling this way.
But maybe,
but maybe...
home will find me.
About the Creator
Joanna Lynne
Growing up on the west coast of Canada, I have developed a taste for adventure. The fiction I write is inspired by my own experiences and places that have encouraged my growth creatively.
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