Broken

One foot is always out the door

I've never known what it's like to commit fully.

Not since he did this to me.

Yes, I still think of myself as that girl

the one who was shattered by an unfaithful

Husband. Married and everything.

And he still did this to me.

Since then I don't trust anyone.

At least not completely.

I can't afford to

I was so absolutely broken when he left

there's still parts of me that are missing.

Still parts that are cracked.

I can't risk another crack.

I wish I could experience bliss again.

Giving your entire self to something.

Someone.

Living completely in the moment.

But I'll stay on the fence,

never too comfortable on either side.

Why put myself through that pain again?

Would I do it all over you asked?

Yes.