sometimes
i would sit
in the dark
consumed in my thoughts
my fears of what i would do
if you left me
when we were both
in college
all grown
on opposite sides of the country
long gone
and i wondered
what would i do?
how could i survive without you?
and yet
at the same time i wondered
what would you do
if i
left you?
my mind tells me to go
that you wouldn’t care if i
up and vanished
that never again seeing my name
lighting up the screen of your phone
incessant
would be a relief
but it’s just the anxiety
the imposter syndrome
right?
wrong
a self fulfilling prophecy
and i try to bend
to breathe because
it’s all in my head
and it should stay there
so i try to keep it inside
but not
i guess
enough
because
i am as too-much for you as you
are not enough for me
you say that i
am suffocating
never enough room to breathe
but i
can’t breathe
without your ever-waning interest
in me
i have to beg
for attention
affection
always the first to text
and the last message
left hanging
you say you give me
to much
walking on eggshells
so why do i feel
like what you give is not
enough
for me?
the eggshells you leave
feel sharper
and if this
is how we both feel
then why are we still here?
and i could call you names
so cold
unyielding
manipulating my weaknesses
you know exactly where
it hurts
you bitch
how you ruined me
and made me yours
but why should i
how can i
be angry?
when i hurt you just as much
as you hurt me
and i thank you
for being brave enough
to go
i thought
that i would die
without you
but now
i stand
i breathe
i don’t stare at my phone all alone
in my room
waiting for you
i am free
i hope that you’re free too
About the Creator
maisie
prose, short stories, and occasional poetry of the mystery, crime, and psychological horror variety
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Omggg, all the pain, the hurt and the emotions were so relatable. I've been in the same situation before. I loved your poem so much!