Alone, waiting in a world of my own
Staring at the foot of the bed
Staring at my future
Alone, waiting, hoping for his sleep
Alone, listening to the screaming silence
Alone, listening for the sound of footsteps
The chair scooted back
Walking to the kitchen?
Coming to the bedroom?
Please walk to the kitchen…
But the steps are getting louder
Hugging my knees, preparing again
Covering myself
Feet stomping, fingers pointing
Blaming, hating, leaning over me
Pulling my leg, flat on my back
Hateful words
My eyes are closed
A fist in my ribs, in my thigh
Hands around my neck
Scratching, struggling, praying
Prying fingers away
Are you ready for more?
It’s me! It’s me! My God! It’s me!
Muscles tensing, stretching
Pushing against my chest
Hair blinding, covering, smothering
Eyes crying, eyes glaring
Legs intertwined with arms
Please see me
Please hear me
Heart aching, lives breaking
Knees in my ribs and jaw
Wrestling, squirming
Pointlessly begging
Again, his hands around my neck
Breath won’t come
Relax, breathe slowly
The air comes flowing in
His hands get tighter
Giving up will end the pain
Mine, his, theirs?
The pain inside
My eyes are closed
Ready to leave
To make my choice
His grip eases
My chest rises with relief
Footsteps walk back down the hall
Alone, waiting in this world of my own
Staring at the foot of the bed
Staring at my future
Footsteps are returning too soon.
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