Blonde, brunette, redhead
Or, how my gender identity taught me to shapeshift
Today I am a blonde bombshell
My wig brushes my broad shoulder,
It's getting hard to make my outer shell
Feel "femme" as I get older.
Yesterday I was a ravishing redhead,
My wig brushed on my flat chest,
I'm told it's "manly", but I felt instead,
As "girly" as the rest.
Tomorrow I'll be a brusque brunette,
My wig will brush my curvy bum,
And I'll take any compliments I can get,
From whatever gender they come
My outer shell may first appear to be
A "womanly man", or so I've been described,
While in my inner self, where I'm truly me,
A "manly woman" secretly thrives.
When I sleep, I may see myself in dreams,
Male, female, or androgyne,
And only when I wake, strange as it seems,
Will I know which label today will be mine.
How does it feel to know what you'll see
In the mirror, day after day?
For me that silver window of time
Always has something different to say.
We try so hard as humans to belong
To one crowd or another,
To find a bond that feels so strong,
That we can say "we band of brothers"
But it's not black & white, nor pink & blue,
And I've finally discovered instead,
The rainbow is the one flag I truly do
Feel proud to fly over my head.
About the Creator
Mx. Stevie (or Stephen) Cole
Genderfluid
Socialist
Actor/actress
Tarot reader
Attracted to magic both practical & impractical
Writer of short stories and philosophical musings
Comments (2)
Beautiful work!
I really enjoyed this. I'm not trans, nor do I struggle with my gender, but I feel your struggle and triumphs deep in my soul. What I am is a middle-aged mixed race woman who has straddled 2 worlds for way too damn long.