You took everything from me that night.
And now, I need to be held down and torn open.
And now, I need to be beaten and broken.
I need to lose my breath, lose my sight.
I have no need or want for control any more.
I need to submit to ultraviolence, to get closer to the sweetest release.
You've made me sick; dark, twisted. This craving for suffering is like a disease.
And now, I am craving dull aches, blue bruises and cuffs on my wrists, with my face pushed down into the floor.
And now, I need teeth in my skin, hands marking my neck under a tight grip, I need to be made feel that I'm as low as an animal.
I need to find some kind of God, I can't keep myself open, exposed to this kind of hurt.
I will end up dead and buried, have a gravestone with no name, I'm all but buried six feet underneath the shallow dirt.
Even so, you will still hear me howling, craving torture, like flesh to a cannibal.
About the Creator
Lauren Tyrrell
Alleviating the darkness, one day at a time.
Irish.
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