I've been living my life in black and white
And I had never even realized.
Since I was younger, teetering on the line of
Child or adult, female or male?
"Practically perfect" and "just hang yourself".
Ricocheted between extremes.
Wedged into society's binaries.
Forced over-simplicity.
I used to believe in it too.
Because I didn't know that you couldn't believe,
Being in a world ruled by either/or thinking.
Even though I was living proof of in-between.
I've noticed how much my vision has changed since.
A monochrome world exchanged in an instant
for color.
Vivid.
Color.
Her pressed pink lips parted
As we lay face down in waves of green weeds,
tumbling into possibilities
I never knew to think.
In stillness, my shirtless body floating
within blue quiet majesty.
Not yet having seen surgery.
Just glimpsing that technicolor world.
With every year, that view seeped through
cracks I couldn't see, and saved me.
But the change seemed gradual,
a gradient.
Slow spinning wheel barely leaving
behind its mark.
Until last year hit like a saturated flood.
And I saw my mind's levee break.
And the color of life came rushing in.
Intensely beautiful.
Intense pain.
Red cries for lives, for homes, for peace.
Piercing sounds
Reverberant in the streets.
Painted on the walls,
A reverent masterpiece
Paying homage to all we've lost
While looking forward to release
From black and white thinking
And society's binaries.
Here's to embracing the colors within ourselves.
For only then, will we be living free.
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