My little sister was mad at me today
Because I didn't let her sleep
With me last night...
What she doesn't know is
I was falling apart
Behind my door.
I've been falling apart
Behind all that makeup
I wear to fake the strong inside me.
I've been falling apart ever since she was born.
But I can't have her see me like this,
Little sisters don't deserve
The tragedy of seeing
Their role model fall apart,
At least not yet.
How do I explain to her
Why I'm always in a bad mood lately?
How do I look at her and tell her
That wounds don't always heal
When it’s my job to make her feel stronger.
How do I explain that
We are two birds
Rising from the ashes
of the same tragedy?
Rape has a way of coming back and
How do I explain that
All of the women I know
Have been raped at least once?
How do I explain
I wasn't always a fish,
I was sometimes a cobra,
Sometimes a sheep
But it was never me they took.
It wasn't her
He took,
He took her innocence,
But not her burning rage,
And as long as we have
Wild hearts and wild hair,
As long as we have
Mouths louder than thunder,
We are ourselves.
No matter what they take,
Even if they skin us alive,
Even if they scrape our insides
And feed them to us in the morning,
They will not devour
The sound of our living,
Unless we allow them to.
She will break sometimes,
Like I do,
And the world will be cold,
her bed will be an ocean
Of memories
And her own arms will drown her
In too much of herself.
She will never forgive herself
For being too much of a woman,
And she will hate them for being
Anything but human
She will break down to pieces,
But she will have to build
A home out of her brokenness.
The world will end for her
Many nights in a row,
And begin again every morning.
She will then understand
That sometimes the rain
Is louder than the thunder,
And sometimes your wings bend
But it doesn't mean you are broken.
And lonely people like us
Have been sent to fight the battles
God created for us.
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