Behind My Eyes...

I remember that I said

please

but not one listened in the darkness...

not one heard the deafening

-scream-

like raindrops shattering the piece of glass

thrown

off

a window pane

now all I have left is

pain

and it crawls

-up-

my spine into my shoulders

into my brain.

I have nothing to go by

and nothing to help me

but straining to listen to the

jolting electricity behind my head.

My brows,

raised,

my jaw,

clenched,

not looking behind me but still...

not looking behind my eyes

protruding sensations of horror,

nightmares and sensations of terror.

I'm sorrowful.

No sleep.

Not a moment of relaxation,

muscles strained against reason

and temptations

oh temptations...

Will we ever be free?