Are you there?

I call out your name

I hear no reply

I beg for your comfort,

to hold my hand,

show me the ropes

I desire your love,

to feel constantly connected,

like mother and son

I plead for your mercy,

to shower me with rain,

a clean slate

I want your affection,

to lovingly reminisce,

of forehead kisses

I need you to answer.

I call out your name

I hear no reply.

I know you comfort me,

my tears flow,

like a river

I know you love me,

my frazzled heart,

skips a beat

I know you show me mercy

the bright and

luminous sun

rises

I know you’re affectionate

the moonlight

glistens on

my wet,

streaked face.

I need you to hear me.

I call our your name

I hear no reply.

Will the waves stand still if i’m no longer here

Will the grass stay the same when i can’t cut it

Will the clouds disappear just like i did

or,

Will the waves crash ferociously invoking fear

Will the grass be an unmanageable jungle mess

Will the clouds conceal all the sun has to offer

i need you to listen.

i call out your name

i hear no reply.

Do you know how i’m struggling?

Do you know how i cry?

Do you know how much i want you?

Do you know how much i hate me?

and do you even care?

i need you to answer.

i call out your name

i know you're not there.