April's Pain

Spring arrived

Holding hope’s hand

Introducing me to you

The you that suddenly

Looked so different to

The you I’d been friends with

Just the day before

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September smiled at me

And I smiled back

Thinking it held happiness

Thinking it could hand me

Your heart

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And when November came

You caught the first strong breeze

Slipping away like a dandelion

And still I kept holding out my hand

And wishing and wishing and wishing

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And in December I saw

Christmas lights all around me

But I didn’t see you here

Only in my dreams and faded memories

When I woke up to January knocking at my door

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The months walked past me

Leaving footprints behind

Even when you didn’t

Even when you only left

Trails of blood

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And now I am wrapped

In April’s pain

Shedding invisible tears

That look like you

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I wish Spring would’ve

Arrived without you