April 20th, 2017
Poem 18 from my chapbook "As Glamorous as a Kidney"
The April wind makes the trees sway.
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Out of 23 poems I will write for
This chapbook you are viewing #18
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I’m sober thinking of my fathers
Father who is approaching his final
Hours.
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Sober thinking of my father,
The liar, the bastard smoking black
Off tinfoil.
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Dry, thinking of my brother who’s
Getting out of jail tomorrow.
I’ll welcome him into the shit-show
With a cigarette.
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I sit like a stone who’d like to
Turn into a wet dog again.
Not because Grandpa Louie is perishing,
Not because Dad is worth less than piss,
Not because little bro will be out
Of chains free to the streets,
It’s for no reason at all.
It’s something I just do.
I can taste reality knowing full well
There is no washing it away.
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Like a stone I sit dry,
Sober, straight.
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With a clear mind I guide my hands
To grab the beer, pop the cap and
Swig.
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I’m throwing moisture on my fur now.
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The only thing it does is help me
Loosen up a bit –
If I even knew how to loosen
Up at all.
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I pace the room a bit,
Light a cigarette,
Keep ears on the music playing and
Eyes towards the page
With natural anxiety pulsing through
My arms, wrapping around my waist and
Jumping on the pink mattress that
Is called the mind.
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What else is there to write other than
The tiny observations we feel we
Need to note?
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I have three hours at my disposal
Before it is time to shake the
Buzz and see my sister’s softball
Game.
I’m waiting for my cousin to call
Me in between that time to let
Me know the old man is up for
Visitors
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While I sit here and attempt to
Make poetry out of my surroundings.
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This room,
A dying relative,
One empty bottle,
Thought.
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Anxiety
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The April wind continues to
Sway the trees in a literal
Sense.
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Our days are still dissolving
Second by second.
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This artist continues to work
With what’s been given.
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Sitting damp now
With the eighteenth piece
Nearly completed.
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Now it's time for a shower,
Possibly a phonecall,
And the rest of Thursday.
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