Anxiety anxiety

I wake up everyday, regretting my sins from yesterday , I let the replays tumble around inside my head, it's this shit I dread, I go to sleep with anxiety and wake up with anxiety, it's not my fault, or is it? I wish I could control the way things play out inside my head, I fight sleep,cause my dreams they haunt me , but it's not just when I'm sleeping, its constantly... taunting at my insecurities, I let these feelings control me, to the point that I dont even know who I am, I need a friend ... it's almost like I'm sinking...in quick sand. . Reaching out for a hand ... but there isnt one.

I die inside knowing that I'm slowly sinking and noone is there to save me.... even after iv always saved them..

♡shaneia