Anxiety and me
It started when I was 23
I'm feeling anxious...
Life doesn't seem to stop revolving
around this unidentifiable source,
this dream,
not even for a second
so I can breathe.
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The only breaks I seem to receive
are when I'm scarfing down a meal,
sitting on the toilet
or laying down before retiring for sleep;
Half dozing off but fighting the urge
to succumb to this drowsiness,
all so I can indulge in my hobbies and joys
for at least a few minutes,
a couple seconds at least
before falling asleep.
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Sad how it seems
that happiness
is the thing that suffers the most
if other items to-do don't go
as I strongly hoped.
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Work has also been causing panic and worry
due to the heavy workload
and unrealistic expectations.
I'm not used to drowning in so much scurry,
bombarded by urgent chats and exchanges,
filling up my cup well over the brim,
and into the pool of water
forming well below me.
It's contagious; not courageous.
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No one seems to hear my internal cries,
they only add on more screams,
more whines.
I need to do what I am capable of
and lower expectations.
I don't receive that of which I'm providing
and the time I've dedicated is worth more
than feeling like I'm constantly dying.
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Take your breaks.
Plan your days.
Pawn off tasks.
Express your needs.
But don't ever give up;
Stay in the Game.
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keep writing you’re doing fine, 😊😊😊