And There Goes the Train
A poem by Lizzy Pacem, written in the darkest night of 2019 in the midst of a town of turmoil.
- Screech... screech...
Choo... choo...
And there goes the train -
- As I lay in bed
All alone with the window open,
Listening to the screaming and shouting
Coming from the neighbors' house,
And all I can think about is noise...
And fighting...
And how much I hate it all...
And there goes the train -
- As I feel the comforting covers
Wrap around me as my hands pull them closer
Around my body to keep the conflict -
That I want no part in -
Away...
And there goes the train -
- As I keep one ear pressed to the pillow
So only half of me has to hear the threats
And excuses and pleas and sorrow
Coming from my very own kitchen,
Where light and love are supposed to be -
But only hate and rage exist there in this moment -
And there goes the train -
- As I put my earbuds in and turn up the music
To drown out the memories or yelling
And slapping and sounds of aggression and hatred
Between two people who vowed to stand by each other
And love each other...
And there goes the train -
- As I think to myself that everywhere I go
There is fighting and rage and hatred and misery -
And I discover that the common problematic factor,
In all this terribleness,
Is me;
And I begin to truly believe
That everyone would be better off
If I just disappeared...
And there goes the train -
- As I gather the courage to get out of bed
And push down the memories of pain and torture and conflict,
And stumble past the fight in the kitchen,
To walk out the door and away from
The screaming neighbors...
And to the screeching...
And whistling...
That I can hear over everything else...
And there goes the train -
- As I make my way to the tracks
And stare at the possibilities that could lie in wait for me...
An end... or a new beginning...
If I wasn't so stubborn or foolish
To continuously stay in places where
I cause nothing but conflict;
And I sit by the tracks,
And I ponder,
And there goes the train -
- As I finish my thoughts -
And stand -
To head back...
Past the screaming neighbors...
Through my kitchen of rage and violence...
And back to my head with memories of misery -
In my bed, with my comforting covers
And one ear pressed against the pillow,
And an earbud in the other,
And my phone in my hand,
And my eyes drifting out the window to a place
Where all I hear is
- Screech... screech...
Choo... choo...
And there goes the train -
About the Creator
Lizzy Pacem
I have experienced many things over my long life, and all of these things influence my writing. I have been an advocate for the arts since the beginning of the concept of art, and I hope to inspire others to embrace their inner creators.
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