It’s absolutely absurd
but when the email says,
“I am going to love you
for the rest of my life,”
I really do mean it.
//
Do you also know the feeling:
allowance, non-emptying?
Shocking, ha, I’m sad today
and not trying to hide it
or blame you.
//
Actually, I enjoy the sensation
of fantasizing your eye roll,
realizing we can both be
nothing to each other,
recognizing the razor
//
behind your sternum.
You laugh suddenly.
Unexpected moment.
I don’t know why but
now I am feeling
//
joy. I stood outside
waiting on Market Street
after Benni’s show slowly
realizing. Thousands of miles
away your delight at the wind
//
makes me so glad to be alive.
The night goes, beer and pinball,
clamoring dogs to return to.
I lay in bed thinking about you.
Yes, I told you that love is just
//
a feeling and that everyone
deserves it. You do, too.
So when I wake up
I will shout on the Internet
that I am not going to stop.
- Joe Nasta (ze/zir) is a queer writer and mariner based in Seattle. Joe is one half of the art and poetry collective Eat Yr Manhood with Cass Garison. Zir first book can be read for free on issuu and zir work has been published in The Rumpus, Entropy, PRISM International, Peach Mag, and others. Ze co-curates a zine of unconventional art and writing at stonepacificzine.com and is currently part of the 2022 Collective Autonomy in Practice Cohort with the Operating System/Liminal Lab.
Note: This poem was previously published in Friend -- Note in a Bottle 7 on Medium.
About the Creator
Joe Nasta
Hi! I'm a queer multimodal artist writing love poems in Seattle, one half of the art and poetry collective Eat Yr Manhood, and head curator of Stone Pacific Zine. Work in The Rumpus, Occulum, Peach Mag, dream boy book club, and others. :P
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