Alphabet Paint
When synesthesia, the act of writing, and a search for a self fall into a page together.
I have long suspected synesthesia.
That’s when R-E-D becomes red-pink-grey
and S-O-U-L becomes orange-yellow-green-tan.
Under the alphabet is a blinking set of lights
and I chase them with a glass jar
and dirty worn-out eyes.
I dabbed colour on my face when I was six.
And the answers to myself hid in crimson
beneath my nails. Maybe the questions
sit waiting on the business end of an orange peel.
Maybe the puzzle piece darkens like black mould
on my white wallpaper, or
tricolour variations of rainbow flag.
Who gets to decide the paint-by-numbers
combination to my heart? Me?
I’m still working out the difference between
cerise and ruby. Someone told me
magenta isn’t a real colour. Not really,
they said, it doesn’t fit in. And I wonder if it
matches my irises on a bad day.
I know we all want to be mantis shrimp.
They see the world differently, they have
a different paintbox. Their watercolours hang
in the ocean's greatest museums, and they
have more options to choose from. I am pink,
I am red, I am brown, I am yellow, I am the blue of
a dark room on a bright day, I am
dipping my hands in black ink
and writing names on a blank page.
The letters look like me.
About the Creator
Damini Kane
This is just a pocket full of words.
I write about books, fitness, beauty, and travel.
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Twitter: @DaminiKane
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