Hi, my name is Malarie. I'm an addict.
I found this poem weeks after I wrote it in a drug induced haze. I have no memory of writing it, I must have been pretty messed up. I thank God for recovery and brighter days, this one was pretty gloomy.
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Lock me in a tower,
Take me away from this world.
Keep me shielded from evil,
I'm someone's little girl.
I need someone to help me,
stay on the right path
I need someone to remind me daily,
of the destructive aftermath
I need someone to notice,
that I'm slipping up
I need someone to notice,
when I'm on drugs
Why can't I stay sober?
Why am I so weak?
Why can't I stay sober?
It's like quick sand’s around my feet.
I'm being pulled down and the more I struggle the faster it goes.
I'm fighting just to keep my head afloat.
I came to you and said I needed help.
I exposed the darkest part of myself.
You hear me, but you don't understand how heavy this is.
Pacing with a cigarette on the porch...
asking for help, is a last resort.
The louder the voice gets, the longer it's ignored.
I hate this part of me. I want to disappear
I hate this part of me. It's dark and I'm scared.
Date unknown. 2020
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Malarie
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