After You

how am I still here

when I am always in fear

that no one really likes me

I am always losing track of time

or I am stuck in waiting

I am not sure what I am feeling

I always hear things a little too late

I am always infatuated

and that passion always fades

how come I can never keep a connection

I am chasing temporary joy

I wish my mind would stand still for a second

and still, my mind can't hear my body

my heart is in the past

but my head is in the future

guess I didn't want to choose between feeling sad or anxious

I always come back to that one moment

why did it change everything

if we had a happy ending

I would be a different person

our love could have bent the universe

but I am on a different journey

you taught me my first lesson