after work dinners
from me to you
i was driving through town
on my way to pick him up
finally out of work
my feet were throbbing
reminding me why i needed new shoes
the roads were still glossy from their showers that morning,
as i sang along to the new Taylor Swift song
even though i hated it-
even though i wanted to change the station
while stopped at a red light
i noticed a man sitting at the bus stop
his clothes soaked in places they shouldn’t have been
my mind wondered if he’d eaten
i settled on yes so that i felt less guilty
when i failed to notice the green light
the person behind me violently honked their horn
i say violently because i almost felt threatened
i say almost because i drove slowly as a form of revenge
i passed the local church and the park we loved going to
i passed his ex’s house and thought about the way things ended
my heart started to beat a little faster
as i realized his house was almost in view
i passed the cemetery
full of people i never knew
my great-grandmother and sister Sarah, included
i began to wonder if she would have been a better daughter than me
a nauseating feeling settles over me
as i realized the new car smell had returned
i sprayed the car with my perfume
as well as my own body
with his apartment complex in sight
i decided to take the back entrance
as i sat in the parking lot
i hoped she wouldn’t see me
and by “she” i mean one of his many exes
i put on a newly created playlist in an attempt to distract myself
it worked so well that i jumped when he knocked on the window
after unlocking his door
i waited for him to get settled before asking where to eat
several terrible suggestions later, we decided on Whataburger
again
as i drove, we talked about his friends
specifically how he wanted to start seeing them more
as i drove, he searched for stories i hadn’t heard before
about his life
the world around me
sometimes even, myself
when he would tell me a story i’d heard before, i still listened
after 20 minutes of driving, my eyes began to itch
i fought back sneezes
tried my best to ignore my scratchy throat
as the cat hair on his shirt attacked my immune system
we arrived at our destination
took our time to gather our belongings and go inside
when we placed our order, it was the same as always
$13.96 was our total and i paid while he got the drinks
we sat in the same booth as usual
used our cups to prop up my phone
he played me a video of a father and son making mozzarella
i watched even though i’d already seen it earlier that week
our food arrived quickly but it still took us two hours to eat
maybe we laughed too much
other people glared as i threw a fry at him
he raised an eyebrow before throwing one back
when we decided to leave, our stomachs were hurting from the laughter
it was too soon to call it a night
Target was still open so we decided to walk around for a bit
we talked about the time we played hide and seek
at 3 am in the middle of a Walmart with friends
how he had to hold my keychain so that i didn’t give away our location
we discussed our futures and pretended to go christmas tree shopping
my frozen fingers were met by the warmth of his
when we decided to head home, we fell silent
lights were blurred and i thought about kissing him
John Mayer’s “Gravity” started playing on the radio
i could hear his voice as he was humming to the music
i missed the turn onto his street so i’d have to take the long way
he didn’t notice and i was thankful for it
i wanted more time
i parked in the usual spot and turned off the lights
he gathered his stuff slowly and said he had fun
both of us exit the vehicle but i did not close my door
he walked around to my side of the car and pulls me in
we stood in each other’s arms until he decided to let go
i watched as he walked away
diappointed that it was just an after work dinner
with a friend that would always mean more to me
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