At the moment
It felt
Like the end of a lifetime.
At the moment
It felt
Like the world was being ripped out from under me
Like I couldn't stand anymore.
And yet
Somehow
I know deep inside of me
That this isn't an end
But a beginning.
I lost myself
In caring for you.
I focused my entire being
My whole heart
My whole mind
On you.
Now I can live for myself
Can think about my own needs
Can become the best self I can be.
I've learned from you
That living for someone else
Is never fulfilling
And now I can teach myself
How to live for me
And how to be myself
All over again.
I will become better.
I will become myself.
I will be the best I can be.
I will teach myself to grow.
I will refuse to live for anyone but myself
Until I am satisfied.
I've always thought
That when people say
"You must learn to love yourself
Before you can love someone else"
That it wasn't true
But now I see that it is.
It wasn't fair for either of us
That neither of us had learned to love
When we tried to love each other.
We both knew
But tried to hold on
And grasped at the air
And choked on it.
Thank you for the memories.
Now is the time to make ourselves again.
About the Creator
Jillian Schupbach
Theatre and English major at Michigan State University. I love writing and am excited to starting doing so more publicly. I hope you enjoy reading what I have to say.
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