A Year of Discovery, Infatuation & Foundation Building

I don’t know what I was searching for,

Or if I was even looking at all.

I love you without knowing how,

Or where,

Or when.

I loved you first

And then I discovered.

Like a new traveller,

Diving into the unfamiliar,

With an insatiable desire.

With nothing, but self.

No such thing as fully prepared,

But, a readiness to learn along the way.

Yearning for places not been,

Seen,

Or heard.

No touch, no kiss, no cuddles.

Not physical knowing.

Connection.

It was strange.

But, all we had.

But loved showed up

Despite the distance.

Affection through written words,

Spoken words,

Gestures,

Emojis…

Screens became the go-to to see you.

Skype,

Facebook,

Whatsapp,

Emails.

Your mind and your intellect began to be understood.

Infatuation set in.

Was it borderline addiction?

Obsession?

A one-tack mind;

A fixed idea.

I haven’t even felt you

Can this all be real?

A mind filled with questions,

A heart filled with knowing.

Finally,

An unveiling,

Something so familiar,

Yet never seen.

Never touched

Too long I waited.

You are here,

What?

I cannot conceive what my eyes are seeing.

Is this really happening?

Is what I have been dreaming of really here?

A new level of connection;

Commensurate to each other.

New found discovery.

Physical connection.

Intimacy.

The harmonious communication of two bodies

Through music only we can hear.

Dancing with each other in perfect rhythm.

And understanding its effects

On our grounding,

Body,

And soul.

Discovering new depths of love.

Like learning to play a particular instrument

In a very precise style.

It takes time to understand

And the way it feels to hold.

Refining.

Discovering the sound that makes most sense.

Heartbroken,

To have you so close

For such a short period of time.

I cannot be without you!

Move to England?

Is that crazy?

The heart has reason which even reason does not know.

Months without you

Feels like forever.

Screens…

Yay.

An old friend.

Frustration sets in.

But never doubt.

Determination.

Distance gives us limitations

But, focalised what is important.

Communication is all we have

And what we are built on,

What we have laid our foundations with.

Cultivating trust and understanding.

We are avid dreamers

We dream to pass the time.

We dream together.

We dream in private.

Dreams do come true.

Finally,

Again,

An unveiling.

This time of something new…

A certain future together.

And still

Like a new traveller,

Diving into the unfamiliar,

With an insatiable desire.

With nothing, but self.

No such thing as fully prepared,

But, a readiness to learn along the way.

Yearning for places not been,

Seen,

Or heard.

New places to build on the foundations laid.

Two Independent people

With;

Shared dreams;

Shared direction;

Shared goals;

Shared interests.

Fragments of two worlds

Put together

To create a new.

Now,

Two travellers,

Diving into the unfamiliar,

With an insatiable desire.

With nothing, but self.

No such thing as fully prepared,

But, a readiness to learn along the way.

Yearning for places not been,

Seen,

Or heard.

I don’t know what I am searching for,

Or if I am even looking at all.

I just love you without knowing how.