a thousand loose stitches

11/3/24 8:48pm

I’m always having these dreams where I rear-end people and I think that stems from a trauma I haven’t met yet / I have trouble introducing myself / there are a thousand loose stitches in my grandpa’s sweater I stole about ten years ago / I never told him it was his / I don’t know if I ever will / he knows / I have trouble saying how I feel / it tastes bad in my mouth / it feels wrong on my skin / how it coats my teeth and how that light makes my pupils small / the time changes twice a year and so do I / it’s never been about the taste when your hands won’t let go of mine / I use a graph to find out how I feel / as if it’s something someone else has to teach me / I’m talking in my sleep to make up for the time I’m awake / someone told me men will shop until they die / changing their wives’ trim and replacing her tear-stained windows / I always wonder why they call it window shopping / when it’s more like stealing a pair of shoes and leaving your own in place / sacrificing everyone for your own happiness / sometimes it’s okay to be selfish

– ODH