Max starts the engine,
the white smoke appears in the rear
and then vanishes.
Cold air from the AC whooshes out,
my hands hide inside my pockets.
The warm air eventually comes
I force my hands out
and place them over the heater -
they like that.
"Coffee?" Max asks
"Yeah, let's get coffee"
A sweet young face appears in the window
"Two coffees, with extra sugar and cream"
The usual.
The coffee is soft and milky
Max lights a cigarette
the smell is intense
but sweet.
I take a hit,
I feel a light buzz.
Max is excited
So am I.
We drive in silence.
The crunch of the snow,
fills the space
Winter is still felt and seen
the grey clouds hover above,
like soft blankets
Max parks the car,
we keep it on to keep warm
"You sure you want to do this?"
"I should have done it last year";
There is no sadness,
I must go.
Planes fly under the grey clouds,
they come and go.
More sounds now fill the space,
beeping, buzzing, roaring
We park.
"Alright man…", he says
"I guess this is it" I say.
We embrace as brothers would,
but brothers we're not.
He drives off.
I'm all alone.
I'm calm and ready
I board the plane
The feeling is surreal
Unfamiliar faces all around.
I load my luggage above,
and take my seat.
Flight attendants roam the long walkway
"fasten your seatbelt sir" one says -
I fasten tight.
Impatiently I sit
'Is this the right decision?'
I wait,
And wait
And wait.
"Preparing for lift off",
A deep voice announces.
The plane lifts off.
My center of gravity shifts
A heavy feeling pulls at me.
We're up in the air
There is a release
I feel light
I feel free
I cannot go back anymore;
my home is no longer.
Mike and John
Two happy faces walk towards me
We meet for the first time.
It's a strange feeling
But strange is my new normal.
I work in their garden
I pull the weeds that hold so tight
"oh what a wonderful job you did!"
Says John
I'm proud, that took effort
We eat biscuits and drink coffee
The "Telly" is on,
that's what they call it here.
I dig some holes for new plants
I scoop it out with my bare hands
The dirt is black and moist -
John smiles,
"I like to feel the Earth" I say to him.
There is a shack in the back.
The door of the shack scrapes the ground
"I'll fix it for ya!" I say with enthusiasm
I unscrew the screws
Detach the door
Lay it flat
Sand the bottom
Screw it back on -
more screws this time
"You fixed it! Smart young man" says Mike
I feel happy
Haven't heard that in a while.
It's my last night here
A big feast is prepared:
Stuffed duck
Grilled vegetables
Fresh mashed potatoes
And a gravy that kills.
My mouth waters.
We eat, drink, and talk shit
A few glasses of wine and Mike is a child again,
John takes it slow
He's the more intellectual type.
Our bellies are stuffed
We watch a bit of the "Telly"
The moon calls for sleep
We succumb
Krakow, with an apostrophe over the o.
Not Cracow.
Call it by it's real name.
.
I arrived -
It's been 13 years I think.
The small cobbled streets lead to places,
the mom and pop shops occupy the corners,
the locals and the outsiders mix in so well.
I can't believe it
13 years
THIRTEEN YEARS!
4 bunks occupy the small room
An Argentinian
An 'American'
A Chilean
A Paraguayan
We get along pretty well
We spend the days working
One makes breakfast
One mops the floors
One makes the beds
One greets the guests
I'm the breakfast guy
Early mornings are my fill
Our host is this Polish guy
He's quite sweet
But his wife is a vampire
Not a real one unfortunately…
But that would have been cool.
He talks a lot
Tells us of his passions and dreams
One time we go to see him play
Live music that is
He's real good
His voice is harsh -
the suffering.
But sweet -
The agony.
He needs his life back.
We're all boys here
We talk and talk
We advise one another on things
Dating advice and such things
He listens but his wife interrupts
It's just his life now
Nothing he can do.
We enjoy the moments as they pass
We sing karaoke
The Argentinian yells it
The Chilean mumbles it
I budge in from time to time
I think I have a good voice,
the microphone close to my lips,
my vocal chords vibrate
POWER is what I feel.
The adventure is done.
One after the other
We depart our posts
The Hostel is dead
The home that was -
is no longer there.
An invitation to Budapest
It's an invitation to work
He calls himself a Life-Coach
I only seen him on video.
I arrive
The weather is cool
But the sun is warm
I walk amongst buildings of height and age
Imperial architecture they call it
I open the large wooden door
It creeks in excitement
"Hey! What's up man!"
He yells from the second floor
The marble floors echo my steps
We embrace.
It's a strange embrace,
A fatherly embrace?
Maybe.
We work days and nights
His mind is one of chaos
He likes to complicated things,
"Before we do that, we need to do this!"
"We just need to 'start' doing something!"
I respond in frustration,
He doesn't get it.
I accept it for what it is -
yet another experience.
We travel to Prague
By coincidence
The doors of the train shut -
as I am about to get off
"Well I guess you're coming with!"
He says
Maybe the chaos is good.
.
.
.
Back in Budapest
We were only gone for a few weeks
The trip was eye opening
Lives were changed
I realized many things
We eat dinner
I cook it
Homemade meals remind me of home
"Nice job! This is really good Kamil".
We depart for Spain
"Sir you didn't do your check in yet"
"Don't worry about it, it's only 40 euros"
He says
Gives this "shit head" 40 euros
"I thought I checked in, my bad!"
We arrive in Spain
The air is different
The people strange
I try my Spanish
It seems to be working
A conversation with an old man unfolds
'He understands me?'
He tells me about Catalans,
and how here they speak Catalan -
not Spanish.
Shae returns home
"Wanna grab some food?"
"Let's do it!" I say
It's a Taco place this time
tacos in Spain?
I get myself a pair of fish tacos
He gets chicken ones
We sit, eat, enjoy
Small scooters zoom pass -
on the empty streets
The lamps softy illuminate the streets
The Spanish air makes us sweat.
Christmas is upon us
Shae is meeting a new 'Woman'
Character she has
Beauty she has
Passion she has
A motherly feeling she gives.
I help with the cooking
Shae does the cleaning
Dinner is ready
We pretend to pray
We talk
We laugh
We eat
A feeling of home;
It's been a while.
She made me feel home
She sat there on that bench
The street of white Marble
Sketchbook in hand
So focused.
'I should say Hi?'
The thought comes as I pass her
I go back
"Hey! What'cha doing?"
"Ohhh hello! Uhh just drawing"
"Uhh, could I see?"
She is warm
Her smile is soft
Her face young but nervous
Pimples on her forehead
But I have love for faults
No makeup
Clothes of a different kind
I take her for tea near the River
It's awkward.
But we sit with it
We talk of good things
We talk of our lives
We drink tea that's too expensive
Served by a waiter whose too-well-dressed
At tables that have white cloths and fancy menus
We meet again
We ride scooters around the city
We sit on grass that's wet
We sip wine,
even though she's underage
We kiss
She has no clue how one should kiss
I teach her.
I meet her parents
They observe me.
They know I'm a player.
But she's changing me…
They don’t know it.
I come over for food at times
Her mom cooks real good
Just like my mom
It's been 2 years already
I sleep over on the Weekends
We have passionate sex
She's catching on
We cuddle
My arm pains but I let it
She's comfortable,
that's what matters.
.
.
.
We move in together
The Attic room
It's still under construction
Her father and I do the work
It's slow, frustrating work.
Her father is a bit of a nut.
He cuts the drywall wrong,
I try to help -
"Don't worry Kamil, I will do it"
He says
I rather not argue.
The floor creeks as you walk it
The cold air creeps in during the night time
Through the cracks in the wall
The Wasps come and go
And so do the mosquitos
We kill one or two.
There is beauty in the pain of it all:
We got one another
We got her crazy father
And her adrenalin-driven brother
We got her kind mother
And even her envious step-father.
It's not perfect
But perfect is not what I'm looking for.
It's been two months now
A pandemic has seperated us
I'm living with my Polish Grandmother
She's a real pain
She's sweet and all -
But a real pain
My Grandfather the same.
I spend a month with them,
and then I'm gone.
I rent a room in a city nearby
The only one I can afford.
I meet an old lady
She stays in the room near the kitchen
She always cleans
And tells us to clean
But she's sweet
"Kamil it's your turn this week",
She would say.
I meet a guy that smokes lots of cigarettes
Rolls his own
Has a machine for it and all.
He's in the room next to mine
He's also sweet -
But the cigarettes…
Why doesn’t he smoke so much?
He knocks on my door at random times?
"We go for a cigarette?"
"Ahhhh -
only a quick one though"
I have the balcony
We smoke and talk of life
We have deep conversations
He tells me what I need to do
I tell him what he needs to do
Brotherly advice.
We eat a Kebab at the mall nearby
Only us two
The mall is empty
Everyone is hiding
Adult
Teen
Child
No one is out these days.
It's my last week here
We order a pizza
Put on a movie
Sit, eat, watch
Reminds me of old days;
Blankets on the floor
A good movie on the "Telly"
Younger half-brother comfortable,
surrounded by a million pillows
a "knock, knock" on the door
"Pizza is here!" he would say with excitement
"Where's the money?!" I'd ask him
"I don't know?!" he'd laugh -
thinking I was joking.
Ahh… I sigh to myself,
it's the feeling of home.
About the Creator
Kamil Jan Bazan
This is me, documenting this life I have been given, through these mediums. I write/ film about what is currently going on in my life, topics can vary from traveling, hustling, overcoming challenges, etc. Find me at www.takkamil.com
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