A PESSIMIST

I was scared to love

Was a pessimist didn’t gave a crap about love

But your scent smelt like love

Just right there

I wanted to give you my all

Every inch of me

And i forgot all the past i had

Because you told me everything about yourself

You told me about all your exes

You said how we were so common

How our vibe matches

You said you were lucky to have me there

Now all your friends began to notice us

But i also liked it so didn’t bothered to stop them

Now you send me handpicked reels and memes

Sometimes your words make my heart skip a beat

I feel happiest i was ever

But i didn’t knew you were the orbit i will never reach

We were parallel lines never meant to intersect

You are star that shines wherever it is

Our friendship was getting deeper

We were sharing many things

We now had inside jokes which only both of us can understand

But it seemed too good to be true

I felt like it was just a fairy tale happening to me

But reality can’t be hidden forever

So one day you told me about the love of your life

All the my past came right before my eyes

Now i understood why this felt so good

I forgot that i how i was friendzoned

Every time i tried to love

I forgot how unlovable i was

I just made the fantasies in your arms

Guess it was same with me again

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~i wrote this back in 2020 stuck at home with all my pent up frustation and boredom thinking about my unrequited love........

i know how it feels and i hope you'll could relate to it even though it hurts so badly it'll always get better<3