It's 2 AM and I've just woken up feeling like I'm already behind. Why does my mind never stop?
Am I good enough?
I reason with my nervous system. If I go back to sleep and wake at four I would've gotten my sleep and I can have some quiet before my day begins.
Am I beautiful?
My back hurts. That's what I get for skipping the gym. If I get up at 4 I can go there for class at 5:30.
No one takes me seriously.
Why is my heart beating out of my chest?
God, do you see me still? My knees hurt. I'm carrying too much.
Breathe in.
This is a moment. A single moment in my mind.
I have to go back to sleep.
It's 2:20.
Do I matter?
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Mezmur
Between modern psalms you'll find glimpses of my messy mind trying to make sense of the world through poetry. https://dsfwrites.carrd.co
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