A letter to my half-sister

Dear Half-Sister,

How did we go from hugs to silence?

Clearly, you don’t care for my existence.

Despite that, however, I cannot hate you.

I thought I did at first, but hate is to have intense dislike,

And what I hated with all my heart was how you

refused to communicate your feelings. Tell me,

Why did your mom tell me these feelings of resentment

you had towards me? Just because when we were five,

I said I only have one sister. Is that what started

All this hate you have towards me? I remember when

you said to your best friend that you hate me.

But it doesn’t matter, your negative views will not drown me

I’m sick of our family saying we must love each other.

For a long time I wanted you to love me, to be excited that

I would visit you during the weekend, I wanted you to share

Your happiness, your anger, so much more, but I cannot

force you to pretend, and I’m no longer interested in having a bond.

I wish I could say so many wonderful things about you, but the only

thing I can say is that you’re such a talented painter, I remember being

A bit jealous of your amazing art skills, and I felt like a total loser, I can’t

explain why. I guess it’s because you used your time wisely, and I was just

on Facebook all the time.

I confidently used to say that the day you contact me I will laugh so hard,

But now I’m thinking that the day you reach out to me I’m not sure if I will ignore you.