A Knowing You Can't Ignore
Something is Shifting
Some words on worthiness:
Wake up
Already hating my life
Dreading the day
Sick with worry
Prayer
Please don't let me mess up
Please don't let me hurt someone
My intentions are good
Positive mindset
On the bus
Thank God for the time on the bus
Can't go back
Pretending I'm OK
Anxiety
And the coffee doesn't help
But it's small sips of joy or distraction
I don't even know anymore
Ignore what I think they are saying
Thinking
Sometimes I'm great at not even caring
But wouldn't I rather
A better feeling
The better feeling is
I know
I would never
Hurt someone
Like that
And in truth
I'm not the one
Who is hurting the most
It takes someone
Who is hurting
To hurt others
Like that
So
I send them love/
It's what I've been through
It's what I've crawled up and out of
That has expanded my heart
In ways that feel so good
Beyond the hurt
Existing in the hurt
So that I can feel love
That much more
For everyone
The ones who broke me
Myself
All existing for love
And so, thank you/
Grateful
Is a place that helps
Ground me
The souls who come
Into my life
Leaving a message
Of my worth
Imprinting on my heart
Reflecting what's already there
Keeping it open
Making more space
For the freedom
That's coming/
I still haven't found
That beautiful home
For my heart
I've tasted it
In moments like these:
Looking at my kids
Really looking at my kids
Hearing "Mommy" with a soft heart
A smile
On my soon to be teenage daughter's face
Remembering
I have a daughter
I have blessings
From my own womb
Knowing my little sister
Will listen with non-judgmental ears
Words spoken in poem books
And women over the internet
Feeling like they know what I know
Connection I crave
Strangers who are open
To feeling more
Refreshing
Comforting
I imagine
In the end
It feels like
When I'm standing by the water
And I breathe it in
It feels like
The cool calm lake
And the peace it brings me
It feels like worthiness, freedom, and love
About the Creator
Leah Legault
Prefer to speak in poetry/I speak for women, moms, single moms, children, and anyone who feels like it's so hard to be here at times//Developmental Service Worker/ For inclusion/Love brains that works in different ways/Women's Healing Arts
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