A coffee date with mom

Everyone is telling me to find a different mom figure but no I want my mom.

Are you out there mom? I know you hear me but simply don’t want to give me anything that I want. Your not ready….

Okay I’ll give you more time I say but simply just so drained and tired and in so much pain.

Mom I need you now. I need you to come tell me it will be okay. Come sit with me on my bedside and rub my back tell me that my life is on the right track…. Tell me you love me, your proud of me.

You sit with me here at this table. You drink tea with me. “So tell me how has life been?” What has my precious daughter been up to? We sit and talk for hours until it’s time to go. We get up throw our garbage away and with a hug goodbye we go to the car. Don’t worry sweetheart my house isn’t far only a couple of minutes….. she parks the car and slams the door. I can’t see anything everything went black….. hello mom? Are you there waking up only to find out it was all just a dream……

I sit up on my bed shedding a single tear. Where are you mom? I miss you dearly… your so kind and sweet I get all my traits from you. We’ll now I need to get up but it’s so nice and sad daydreaming about you….