4/15/25

A NON-EXHAUSTIVE LIST OF THINGS I’M NOT SORRY FOR

crying on the bus during rush hour / going five years without hearing my grandparent’s voices / using all the sticky notes / being glad our cat died before our vacation / stealing food from grocery stores / stealing anything I can / going to bed early / just to lie there for hours and wonder if I should have been more thorough when I was fourteen / leaving the trash by the back door / going five days without washing my hair / going twenty three years without saying I love you / crying in your bed on our first date / never learning how to cook raw chicken properly / never learning how to ride a bike without feeling like it’s a test / never learning how to speak / never learning how to feel things without becoming them / not being able to cry when I wish I could / suddenly knowing how to cry when I shouldn’t / knowing the difference between platonicity and romance / just to call them by my own name

— ODH