Writer's note: I should be doing assignments right now, but I just needed to get everything off my chest hence I am here writing this. I am mentally exhausted and I just wish my brain could shut down for a moment. So yeah this will most probably be me ranting my thoughts.
I've been so busy recently because I am currently living alone. Every day I have to drive to college, grandma's house for dinner, then I have to rush home right away. On weekends, I have to fetch grandparents here and there and I am always stuck in the traffic. Whenever I get home I have house chores waiting for me to be done such as, laundry, dishes, vacuum, mop the floor, cooking, and the list goes on. Although I am still financially supported by my parents, paying all the bills and managing money is quite a challenge for me. Because back then I did not have to worry about all these, which is why I didn't even know how to use the ATM machine back then. At the same time, I have loads of assignments to do, and I am trying very hard to balance between my normal life, school life, and also social life.
I am the only child in the family and I had always been taken good care of by my parents, but now that they are far away, I have to take care of myself. It's not easy. My mother is always the bad guy because she would be yelling at me and telling what to do, it's seriously so annoying but right now I would trade anything to have her here with me. My father is literally my biggest hero, he really helps me to develop as an individual. He is always there to support me mentally.
Throughout this journey, I've managed to discover people's true colors. Some people can be in a really ugly color. They would leave you when you need a shoulder to cry on and only come to you when they need a helping hand. These are the people that shatter my heart and makes me lose trust in people from time to time. Nevertheless, I should also thank these people because they are the ones who taught me how to be tough and root for myself. We should never forget them and let them be part of our "root", just bury these people and let them stay underground in the brown muddy soil.
On the other hand, there are some other people in really vibrant and bright colors like pink, yellow, green, etc. They are the ones who contribute colors to the flower of the petals, stem, and leaves. These people are the ones that lend me their ears, comfort me and even give me a helping hand even though I did not ask for it. These are also the people who encourage me to grow, be brave and motivate me to be better. I am so grateful and thankful to have supportive friends and family throughout this journey of blossoming.
I just want to say it is not easy to find someone who genuinely cares about you, so please remember that don't ever take granted for good things that are happening around you. Every person you meet in your life whether in an ugly color or beautiful color, they are nurturing and watering you to be a stronger and prettier flower. And then one day you will bloom in your brightest color you could ever be. Lastly, I just want to say thank you to people who look out for me, I will keep holding on.