Life teaches many lessons

Life is challenging, but we love it. This month has been exhausting for me. Emotionally and physically. Due to a few medical conditions that is here to stay. I wipe it out slightly with some energy concoction from Crystal Light. I have been up and down so I think life is alright. Even the difficult ones make us feel better. Recently I had a lot on my mind at once. I could not function so I broke down. It might have gotten too far. It didn't happen as a result of my therapist seeing me yesterday. Then my best friend in North Carolina talked to me.

I had been working hard on learning a few things. To begin with, I had one set of legal documents. I had a wonderful IRS agent. Now, everything is OK so that hurdle is over. I hope she answers when I need her again. It was such an overwhelming ordeal that I lost my mind. I won't do that again for sure. Then I realized that I am not as crazy as I thought I am. I have struggled with fear all my life. It totally ruined me inside, to be honest. I am still dealing with it.

It has caused me to miss a lot of important moments in my life. I don't regret it though. There are things that happen for a reason. I am learning to love that. Like people coming into your life for a reason and a season. I love it. A few weeks ago, I realized I love life regardless of whether I struggle. I have to stop a few things and I mean it. I have to stop saying sorry for something that is not my fault. It bothers me that I hate confrontations. I have learned that no matter how a person is feeling, they always have a positive attitude. Some have no thoughts except noticing the negative.

It is true that we all live on planet Earth, so some things are familiar. I have always thought there are some things that should not be said. Because I wish I hadn't said something recently, I know first hand. I can't take it back so it is all good. It was not meant to harm anyone or to make someone feel less than others. In reality, I was awakened from a blind but wide-awake sleep. It was a sad reality but a blessing at the same time.

I have now been brought before a family court judge because of a situation that could have been prevented. Had I just said no to helping someone? I then realized it was too much for me. I pleaded no and it fell on deaf ears. I was the best person in the world as long as I was doing what I was doing. After I stopped helping, it became dangerous. I am over that sadness hurdle. It is time to realize that life is worth living. There are some days, oh yeah. There were other days of course. I am stopping saying yes. And I will continue to laugh about something each day.

I am learning new frugal meals. Eating some delicious meals by doing it. Spending a lot of time card making. I have a few awesome things coming my way this summer so why not enjoy them? I hope you do the same. I want some therapy sessions. I have to enjoy my alone time. So the therapy would be greatly appreciated.

Thank you for reading my story. I am shays_creations and I am not a professional writer. I had some issues. I hope you can understand if I move from one topic to another. Your kind thank you.