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Memories: 11 January 2023

by Tanya Arons 14 days ago in humanity
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Staying alive in a zombie apocalypse, and a reminder of an old flame that sizzled out on this day in 2015. Marco…fun but another dead shit (rolls eyes)!

A perfect mirror of my love life too.

11 January 2022

11:11 am. I keep seeing 11s in recent days. This means another shift is occurring. For me personally, and the planet. Be ready for anything. The angels are demanding we notice all synchronicities. Is it good…is it bad? It just…IS.

Stay beautiful, stay fierce, stay in love with Life and each other. Hold your ground. Hold the line. Smile.

The universe is wayyy wayyy bigger than our government psychopaths, bigger than Covid in all its variants…bigger than all of human foibles and inequities and frailties. Bigger that the evil ones. Big big big. Magnificent.

Trust in that! 🙂 as above so below, as within so without. Know thyself and step into your body autonomy and your power.

11 January 2021

9:01 am I had very little sleep but woke up at 7:49 am. Dragged myself out of bed, stripped the bed linen off, started washing. I have had breakfast and am sitting under the frangipane trees and observed with delight the arrival of the King parrot who casually sailed above my head en route to his favourite tree in the garden.

He landed above it on the bough of the golden rain tree then glided immediately to the jade tree. I took two photos of him on both trees.

He was happily perched there when The Beau decided to chase him away. I chastised Beau. I said “aww Bobo I like that bird!” But it’s okay. My King will come back...he always comes back.

I am trying to figure out where his Queen is? He has not been with her the last two visitations. Perhaps she is sitting on their nest?

He’s a spectacular bird. Before The Beau chased him away he was looking back at us as Charley was twittering away on the wooden table beside me. I think the King Parrot is fascinated with this human and her bird and even her pesky dog!

I am so tired yet somehow energised. I am thinking that I might continue with painting folk art flowers on a small bookcase or shelving unit I started many months ago.

I had painted it black and used it as a display for my witchy herbs but decided it was too small so I put it in the bedroom then got sidetracked with sanding back the marble tabletops and then the decoupage projects.

But I really think it’s time I finished it. (I also have to sand back the pink marble table as I made a mess of the resin on that one so need to do it again...argghhh!). Both those items are in the spare bedroom.

As it’s a lovely sunny day I put the last of the paper pulp I made a few days ago out in the sun to dry completely. So that will be another task completed.

I am slowly chipping away at things (even with my bad back and crazy verkachte menopause!)

11 January 2020

This evening I had a reminder that I need to invest in myself more. I will need to honour my instincts and impulses more. When I let myself down it’s like stomping on my own foot. Gahhh.

11 January 2019

I spent the day spring cleaning my boudoir. Windows, and rather laboriously washing down the wooden blinds encrusted with dust and grime took hours.

I am washing my mattress protector and 2 pillows so will probably have to sleep in my spare room tonight as they won’t be dry in time to remake the bed. I washed all the ornaments and shadow box knick knacks too. Washed my four poster with lime/mandarin vinegar to get rid of dust and took down the curtains and the Rajasthani thing that hangs over my bed and washed them.

I still have the floors to vacuum and mop but am quite exhausted from the spring cleaning (of just one room!)

It smells lovely in there as I also put the sweet orange essential oil my neighbours gave me in the diffuser. Also it feels good knowing I have cleaned almost everything.

Maybe some of the spiritual attacks will ease off now my personal space is purified.

Cleanliness really is next to godliness!

At least it’s raining at last. Soothing to the meridians.

11 January 2018

Schvitsing hot day. I just took a shower. Now wet from fresh water instead of my own sweat. Time to go back to the beach I think. I hope the humidity is broken by a nice storm but not sure if any are predicted.

Yesterday I finally cracked open my new yoga mat and took it outside on the grass and watched a few Beginners Yoga videos. I did not have the core strength to hold the downward dog position for very long and got the giggles at my overly huge Hobbit feet and my large belly getting in the way of everything.

The yogi was a lithe fit woman in perfect proportion. No amount of yoga can fix my oddly shaped body but I will be lithe too. In time I will tone that flabby gut and although my clod-hopping feet will always look odd I won’t care as I will be just beautiful the way I am.

All I gotta do is commit to doing yoga every day. Yeah I know. Cccccommitment phobe. But dancing has done me well and so will yoga. I feel so integrated already.

Charlie managed to poop all over my mat in the 30 minutes I was using it. Gaia froze towards the end of the third video so I had to give it up, wash the mat and just roll with the disappointment.

Bobo was fascinated by Mama’s downward dog so he brought a bone to chew right next to me. Hard to focus with fur children and feathery poop slingers. But I did it!

11.1.2018 (11). Gonna be a spiritual day. Enjoy!

11 January 2017

Today I threw my mother's rug on the compost. Decluttering continues.

Not well. Antibiotic-related diarrhoea, nausea, few hives, mild temperature. Apparently this is common even up to 2 months after finishing a course of antibiotics. I finished the strong antibiotics last Wednesday, a week ago. Been crook with tummy issues since Sunday. I will have to buy Inner Health plus (probiotics) from the chemist and if no better go to the hospital.

On top of this the dry socket is still not healed properly. I can't bear another course of antibiotics as this has really made me sick. So more rest, probiotics and taking care of myself.

Karen brought a chicken, salads, chocolate cake, Jack Daniels and ingredients for a potato bake. She is staying here with me tonight.

We have had a lovely dinner, and spent the night watching Heartland. It is lovely to have her company.

Yesterday I had Jarrod and Harvey's company as well. I am happy and grateful for my beautiful friends, human and animal.

Louise Winton: Tanya that's so awful for you I hope you're feeling better soon, I am glad Karen and Jarrod have been with you XXXXX

Me: Thanks Louise x

Julie Goddard: Antibiotics wont heal a dry socket , I have never had antibiotics for that , all they did was pack it and it was fine , hope you feel better soon Tanya

Me: Dentist gave them to me as he said the bacteria causes the pain in the bone.

Really strong ones. But now I am crook anyway FML. Soldiering on as per usual.

11 January 2015

4.23 am. Still awake. Grrr! Lana rang me at 1 am. Kept me talking til 2ish. I only had 5 hours sleep on Sat night/morning. I was sure I would be in a deep sleep tonight. No dice.

Utterly exhausted. Sore skin on back from heat rash, sore muscles from dancing, reflux, sleep-deprived. Wtf?

At least my mood is better. Yesterday was stressful with Tayhlia, Gail, Christina. I need a holiday. Might as well read a book as I won't sleep now.

Last night was wild, romantic, passionate, fun, amazing, surprising and mind blowing.

Amidst all the crazy intense male attention, one of my most persistent suitors whom I have fended off for over 2 years, revealed his true intentions. I was totally taken by surprise!

After we finished dancing, we had a drink and sat a short while. Then headed outside. We shared and smoked one of my Wee Willem cigars while I took off my shoes and stockings. We walked the streets, laughing and joking with each other.

At one point he said "Jump up". So he braced himself and I ran the 8 feet and leapt up into his arms wrapping my legs around his waist. It was ridiculous and fun. (I am much heavier than he and I half expected him to drop to the ground with my excess weight. He didn't!)

I have never done that with any of my partners in my entire life. It was like being a teenager, both of us kidding around and feeling free.

It was just what I needed after being besotted with Dave, who is as cold and ambivalent as the grave.

Hard to contemplate that I had been missing out on so much fun with a man who is Fire and Warmth and Excitement, like me.

A balm for a pained aching soul and a pleasure of the heart, mind and body.

Psy sighs. I wonder if this was just a brief interlude of mutual insanity or if there is more to aspire to?

Que Sera Sera!

11 January 2014

Am home for a while. Going back to Sarah's tonight from 5-9ish then gonna go out to Irish Murphy's for the night. Need a blow-out of dancing!

Although my back is sore so might not be able to leap about too much.

11 January 2012

Lyn took me shopping today and back to her house for a lovely swim in her pool! Woohoo! Tonight I am going to Southbank with Crystal and Jarrod for a picnic and another swim!

Copyright: Tanya Désirée Arons

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Tanya Arons

I write about my life experiences. I write about complex ptsd, the agonies, the angst and my post traumatic growth. About Beauty, Truth and Honour and little vignettes of comfort from the spirits that love me: living and dead. I also Dance!

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