the person you fell for is not there anymore
the way they treated you in the end is not what you wanted or desired in a relationship
it ended for a reason
if they could throw everything away so quickly, why bother?
they did not want to work on this with you
you need someone who is willing to communicate their feelings and thoughts with you
they stopped trying before
they made you do all the work
this isn't and will never be the person you fell for
this is for the best
they didn't want to make time for you
they had other priorities and did not want to make time for a relationship with you
they did not care to communicate the truth with you
your thoughts and feelings were too much for them to handle
they do not deserve your anything
did they even call you or check in about your day?
just a coward who blocked you on social media
couldn't even tell it to you in person
they don't deserve the work you put in
you deserve to be treated with respect
the words they said did not mean shit because their actions didn't add up
the words were nice to hear but that's all they were
they were just sweet words with no meaning and substance behind them
a relationship shouldn’t constantly give you anxiety
you should not have to constantly worry about whether you never know if the person is going to change their mind or not out of the blue
you can not go back to the past
you just gotta learn and work better at the next relationship you have
i need to accept that things are different with everyone I date and that my experiences will be unique with each person
maybe if they called me or made some effort to explain why they wanted access I'd give it
but i already shared it with them for a while i don't understand why they want access now
you got the idea of the message
i know you received all my last texts and calls
what's the point of wanting to access all my raw thoughts and feelings now after I told you I was letting go?
i just don't see the point in giving them access
if they want to contact me, they can
they need to actually make the effort cause i'm done
i did everything that i could've done to save it back then
their message threw me off and i was even contemplating letting them have access to it
because I am in my feelings and I miss the good times we had.
I miss it sometimes but I just have to remind myself how shitty I felt when it ended
I literally couldn't concentrate on anything.
my mind was everywhere emotions flying everywhere it was too fucking much for a person to handle
i just don't know at this point
i'm not sure of anything.
i am just going through the motions of what i feel like i need to do
what the fuck
i just want stable people in my life to show me what stability and grounding yourself is like
i don't feel grounded. I dunno how i feel.
The fact that I think talking with them is a waste of time is not good.
i leave them on read a lot cause I just dont know what the fuck to say.
I love them.
I think a part of me will always care for him.
even now
i was upset at how he handled things
part of me is upset at how he sends request for access to it
nothing he would have said would have made me happy
Nothing he said could have made me feel any better
I would just continue feeling like shit.
When I talk about heartache now I talk from someone with experience and I appreciate it.
I appreciate being able to see the world in a different light, in a way that let’s me appreciate the real beautiful people.
maybe it isn't possible to get a love that makes you feel high without also obtaining huge heartache as well
i miss you but I don't see how it could ever work with the damage we’ve done to it
I really can’t trust you.
And if I can’t trust you, how am I supposed to open up and be myself around you?
Maybe I really do just need to be with a new person.
I'm just exhausted and I just have low expectations right now for everyone and everything
I want to explode
Or drink away my problems
I really could see a future with them.
I miss their personality, being able to trust them, and tell them about my day.
I miss them. I miss intimacy.
This doesn't at all mean i know if i want them back or not-it just means i miss it. I fucking miss it.
I want them to come to me and just say they want to work on it
because they know they love me and don't ever want to lose me
I just want them to come and love me-can't we just tackle this together?
Can we actually work on it together?
I don't know.
They didn't want it.
I don't know what happened.
They are not coming back.
About the Creator
Chantel
I range from social justice issues to sexuality articles, all depends on my mood.
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