My Angel

It was a few months back when I had recently broken up with my girlfriend. I was having a really hard time accepting that she's gone and doesn't love me anymore. She was my first love and never thought i will have to live without her. My mental health was getting worse day by day. I had Anxiety and Panic attacks . I used to cry all night and couldn't sleep. After almost 2 months of this mental torture i finally thought of making myself feel better. i thought maybe making new good memories would help me forget the old ones. And i had just came in contact with this boy who had been hitting on me . We were just in contact through Whatsapp chats. And he asked me to meet him in college . I really wasn't sure if i should or not . But my inner was so desperate to talk to someone that i planned to go. As soon as I saw him i realized my mistake .

I spent a few minutes with him and made an excuse to get away . I was so damn angry with myself . I was Anxious and felt really bad. I went to an empty room in basement of my block and tried to calm myself . I was listening to some music and scrolling through Instagram. But nothing seemed to be helping.

I was just about to cry when this lovely person in her beautiful Blue dress came in asking about her class. I tried to control my tears. I thought i should stay there until her class starts because there was no other in the college where i could be alone. I was still scrolling through Insta when she started asking about me. I kept on answering and realized that i had just met her and I am talking about all my trauma with her . Maybe it was my desperation or maybe my sixth sense just made me trust her. I was still tryna control my tears. Talking to her made feel a lil a better. All this was just so random to believe . And then something happened that i would've never expected. She came and hugged me. It felt like everything that was holding me down just vanished. My anxiety was gone and I felt really good . Anyway I still kept talking to her. She was now telling me about her time .

This went on for a few more minutes when her class mates came in for the class and we changed our conversation to songs, books and sports. We both were planning to start our sports again.

When her teacher came in I started to rush to get out of the class not realizing that we have no means to contact each other . She came out with me and I gave her my number so that she can contact me after her class . When she was trying to save my number we both realized we don't even know each other's names. That was quite funny and weird at the same time . We have just shared our life stories with each other like we know each other for a very long time, But we don't even know each other's names.

I left telling her my name and knowing hers . That one hour was like the longest one hour for me. I was feeling so excited to see her again . But she didn't called or texted me back.

It had been about 3 hours and I almost made myself believe that she won't contact me .I was about to leave college when I saw her friends going to college buses. I don't know what came into my mind I just ran to them asking for her number. And luckily I got it too. I waited a lil more.

But then I couldn't control and texted her that I'm leaving college now. She didn't replied for a while and finally she texted that even she was about to leave college. I asked her if she wants to join and she said yes. She was supposed to come in a few minutes but again about half an hour passed. I was waiting for her in parking. I texted her again and finally she said she's just 2 minutes away .

After a long wait we met again and she offered to go to nice food place in her area . There was no reason for me to say no And we got there . We ordered Momos and had a long conversation about my girlfriend. We were so into our conversation that we didn't had a clue how much time had passed. The waiter there actually came to ask when we are gonna leave. Embarrassed we got out of there . We went to her house ,I met her mother as well. I was there just to get some water but stayed a little longer than that.

Suddenly I got a call from my mother asking where was I and I realized that I was supposed to be home 4 hours earlier. I rushed back home.

All that happened that day was so random to me But I realized that If someone is supposed to be in your life That person will stay but if not you can't do anything about it.

It was an amazing day for me. I slept after a very long time, Like all i needed was to talk to someone. I had made a really good friend who also is my therapist now. I talk to her almost everyday and about all of my problems whether about physical or mental health. She's helping me a lot to get out of this hard time . I'm really grateful for her to be a part of my life.