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Meditation

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By Inaa AgudeloPublished 4 years ago 3 min read
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Last night was great.

I went to eat with my nephew and boyfriend.

We caught up, and talked about a lot of things openly.

He expressed he wanted to be treated with respect and be taken seriously.

We talked about his feelings and what he wants to do when he’s older.

We talked about sexuality and if he’s ever liked boys. He said he’s mostly liked girls.

We asked his opinion and gave him a voice to be heard.

He has a voice. Hear it.

At all ages we have voices and we are limited by our parents. But please—just listen to your kids sometimes. Just stop for a second.

What are they telling you? Are they really being a brat for no reason? What’s the reason??

Any who—off topic rant—oops.

I fell sleep after rapping, dancing, and laughing with my nephew and my boyfriend in bed.

For hours.

When was the last time I did this? Years ago! How sad.

I missed it and it will happen more—definitely.

Still working on time management.

Slowly improving.

I wake up at 5 AM and my nephew is still next to me in bed.

We both wake up and I asked if he wanted to sleep on the couch.

I set him up. Tuck him in. Get into bed.

I started to meditate off a new app I LITERALLY downloaded as I laid back to bed.

I’m looking for meditations.

I found one I like on Apple podcasts—boom. I listen to it.

Next thing ya know—I got super into my meditation.

I’ve done this same one millions of times. This time was different. This time I was out here crying.

Legit in my bed at 6 AM now.

I felt so good—What the heck???

Ok so I feel so many released emotions.

So many.

I feel lighter.

Ok.

I break meditation and...

For some reason I go on insta.

I look at a post off someone’s story on insta.

It’s art that looks like Hawaii.

I got interested and wanted to see who the artist is.

I end up on another page—where the original photo is from.

Ok.

So I go to this new page.

Guess who follows it?

Derick—my friend who passed away back in July.

My.

Jaw.

Dropped.

Then I saw the photo in the caption.

And I burst out in TEARS. FULL SOB. I CRIED SO LONG AND SO HARD.

I felt a connection. I can’t explain.

I feel a release.

I feel like it was a sign.

Like it’s a I’m ok.

It was powerful.

I am so touched.

I felt that—I felt the okay to breath—I felt the I’m okay—I felt okay.

Dealing with so much anxiety and depression is exhausting and releasing energy like this is amazing.

Makes me feel lighter.

I didn’t want to forget.

Derick helped me, he helps guide me.

He had such a beautiful soul, and I will never forget the lessons I learned from him.

This is just my thoughts being written down while I have some tears running down my face.

This is how powerful meditation can be.

I felt so in-tune.

I will share more as I go on.

I will always remember the kind words, powerful message and strong feelings he had.

Everything he did—he did with passion from working out to his business to new hobbies.

Rest In Peace Derick.

Thank you for this.

I needed it.

Thanks for reading if you made it this far!

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