Loving Him

Everything has been backwards for us from the beginning. Somehow it works, we ended up at the same job at the same time on the exact same schedule. Neither one of us had any intention of finding any kind of relationship we came to work and go home. I didn’t notice him right away, but I knew he was around. I have no idea why but my first interaction with him was a mean mug! Crazy right. It stayed that way for a few weeks until he finally came up to me and asked why I always did that. He decided I needed a hug. I accepted it, and boom! That’s how it started! Now I’m smiling more. Now he’s curious about that girl everyone talks to yet she doesn’t talk much at all. He starts to find ways to talk to me and one day asks for my IG. Now it’s turning into some kind of flirting game.

Day after day we find ourselves wanting to be around each other more and more. The curiosity grows stronger. Now we hangout with each other at lunch. We talk more we text. A kiss??? Yes we kissed. Wait but how it’s too soon, we don’t know anything about each other. Conversation gets deep and feelings start to develop. ❤️

Everything Happens so fast but it feels so right. How can you feel so much for someone you know nothing about. We focus so much on being around each other that we forget to learn about us first. Now we are in a relationship. No way! How? Well I couldn’t go on just having him but not having him if that makes sense. We still know nothing about each other so how will this work. Time flys by and we start to know about our crazy life stories.

Baby mama drama is huge baby daddy not around, two kids on my side four kids on his side. Everything you can think of that would separate us is happening but the more it happens the more I’m addicted to being with him. He’s like a drug to me. He feeds my soul my desires I crave him on all levels. Sex is wild and amazing. We go so well.

Now it’s over. Why? What happened?

Maybe not enough time with each other maybe all the problems got to be too much. Maybe we are too much alike or too different. But I still care about him and he does too. He reached out first he wants to talk, I want to talk. But nothing was said. We want to make it work. But we don’t know how. Now it’s just in the air what will happen to us? Will it work? Can we be devoted enough to this relationship and overcome any obstacles that come along!

I’m waiting.

But I don’t know what I’m waiting for.