Let's Rearrange

You'd risk losing her? Honestly? You'd give her the keys to your whole world and in seconds walk away from everything you've built together. Keep the keys, you just let the woman of your dreams stand there alone after closing time. What would a set of keys do for you after you've shut the whole show down? She's not the problem is all that you can come up with. You've got to do better than that. This girl is the one you've been waiting your whole life for and simply put you're jealousy is what has gotten the best of you.

In relationships we choose to be argumentative, egotistical, and sharp. There's no misunderstandings when it comes to the tone you use toward someone who knows you. She does know you by the way, this woman you're with isn't just a stranger taking a wild guess, she's up to date and current with the problems between you. She's suffering from them and the whole world is watching. Walking away isn't going to do anything but throw newspaper over piss in public. So why would you let your emotions take over and walk out if it wasn't really that serious of a relationship.

Here's Why. It is serious. You do love her. You love her more than you think she can understand because there's no way she could possibly be as smart as you. She's not even important in the problem. It's jealousy that's consuming you. It's that simple, she isn't lost and insecure, and so maybe you are. For every thing she could help you with you'd rather pretend your girlfriend is just a dramatic distraction making life harder for you. If you weren't jealous of the girl you'd have no problems clearing your head. It's a 2 second decision to stay or go. You leave and she's none the weaker, she's loved, by you. You though, you're in over your head spinning things up and winding them out into something toxic just trying to control her. Cool it buddy, She may be on your mind but she's not by your side anymore. Remember where you left her and hope she's still there after another bullshit lash out from you. Those eyes flash fire and she's not worn thin from a single blaze. She does something remarkable every time you win, she starts to smile.

You've got to forgive me for laughing but you couldn't expect anything less. If she can handle you in bed she can handle you when you walk out on her. The only thing left for you to decide is how you're going to explain yourself when it's your turn to beg her not to go. She's not walking away in anger. She'd walk away none the less wiser for it. Compromises and chances being what they are, there's only so much she's going to do before eventually she holds out a mirror for you. You're fighting yourself and losing a woman who might have loved you back. Who knows?