A Woman’s Worth

It’s been a week since I decided to give dating apps a try, so far it has been going pretty well. There is this guy that I started talking to and he seems decent for the most part. We have a lot of thing in common, his name is Steven and he is twenty-three. I know my parents are going to have a problem with his age because I am only eighteen. Maybe they will see that he is a good guy and give him a chance. Hopefully, when I meet him tonight our connection is still the same like it is over the phone. If everything goes right maybe a relationship can blossom between the two of us. That would be amazing, since it would technically be my first relationship. Steven and I can possibly build a long -lasting relationship. I finally, decide to get up from my desk and head downstairs. Once I get to the bottom of the stairs, my father calls my name.

“Ava, come here.” I enter the living room and see my dad sorting through some papers.

“Hi dad, what’s up?”

“What do you want for dinner?” I take a quick glance at the floor and try to figure out an excuse to go out.

“Do you mind if I go over to Piper’s house to study for our biology test tomorrow?”

“No, I don’t mind. Just send me and your mother her address.”

“Okay, I will send it to you.” I go into the kitchen to get a bottle of water and head back upstairs to my room.

He actually said yes to me going out on a school night I am completely shocked. Well, it actually made since because he thinks that I have to study for a biology test. A part of me feels bad for lying to him, even though I’m not lying there is a biology test tomorrow. My father doesn’t know that I spent the weekend studying for it. What he doesn’t know won’t hurt him.

I grab my phone to call Steven to let him know we are good for tonight. Once I hang up and I begin to get dressed. Trying to figure out what to wear is a headache, I need to dress casual but also look super cute. My outfit needs to stand out enough to impress Steven.

An hour later, I am finally ready to go. I decided to wear a green flannel with jeans and converse. The green flannel brings out my brown skin complexion, along with my dark brown eyes. Hopefully, Steven thinks I look attractive tonight.

Before I leave, my parents tell me my curfew and to make sure I text them when I get to Piper’s house. When I get into the car, I text Steven to let him know that I am on my way and put the address into my GPS. During my drive I blast music hoping to get rid of nervous energy. Please God don’t allow me to make a fool out of myself, everything needs to be perfect tonight. As I’m pulling into the movie theatre parking lot the nervousness begins to take over. I park the car and let Steven know that I just arrived.

Instead of going to see a movie we both decide to sit in his car and talk. This is better than watching a movie because we are able to get to know each other a lot better this way. I just want to get to know him more on a deeper personal level. While we are in his car, we are asking each other question back and forth.

“Okay, enough of the questions. Let’s play a game.” I love hearing Steven speak his voice is so deep. Everything about him is perfect, the way he looks at me makes my heart skip a beat. Wow, this relationship can be something magical.

“What game do you want to play?” After I asked this question, he just kissed me. I was caught off guard but it felt good. This was my first real kiss and I was happy. Steven pulled away and just stared at me for a minute.

“Sorry, I don’t know what came over me. I just had the urge to kiss you.”

“Steven, it’s honestly okay.” From this moment I knew amazing things were going to happen.

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Today, makes a month since I’ve been dating Steven and let me tell you, it’s not going great. Steven turned out to be controlling, manipulative, and everything that I wasn’t not expecting. I don’t want to be in this relationship anymore, but I’m afraid to leave. How the hell do I get out of this? How did I miss the warning signs? Steven is nothing like the person that he claimed to be.